I am born again lazy! My hands are full and I am afraid of letting go who I am. I have filled my life with girls, sex and alcohol and I’m afraid of what I’ll become if I don’t let it all go. I’m up for hours every night hating what I have become yet I hold on. Get tried around 10:30 go to be around 3 going to bed unfilled looking, searching for something great. Looking for HIM. Why do I hold on to something I hate?? Am I that afraid of the unknown and putting everything I have and everything I am in his hands?? Matthew 4.19 says “Follow me, and I will make you fish for people.” Such a simple statement yet something so hard to do. I want to let go yet I hold on to stuff so hard my knuckles have started turning white. I want to hold on to what I know, what I think is secure. But god says let it go, let it all go and life is waiting for those who can. Maybe I’m this way cause I am corrupted by this society. We get this imagine of what we should be by TV, by radio, by magazines. We are in a battle for our very souls and we are losing. It’s all around us. Its in our home, in our workplace, in our schools. It just never stops unless we turn it all off and give it all up. Romans 8:6 says “The mind of sinful man is Death, but the mind controlled by the sprit is life and peace. We are a broken people our church walls have become so thick and our legs have grow so tried. We have become so comfortable in our padded seats. But God doesn’t want us to be comfortable. He wants to go spread the word to those who have never heard it or just walk out the door and show his love! He wants us to be his hand, his feet, his legs, his hope, his joy , his gentleness, his Love! Because he is the prize we just have to let him use us! Well I’m tried of holding on to all this dirt in my life and I’m ready to follow! I’m done worrying about what I’ll lose. Done worrying about what it will cost. Done worrying about how much of me it will take. I am ready, ready to let it all go and give it to him. The question is can you let go of all your dirt and give everything over to god?